this year was not as bad as i thought. XD
i love it when i find myself not rushing for deadline.
and perhaps it's the growing up thing, but i feel constraint in my house everyday.
I WANT TO GO OUT! more and more... i remembered someone told me that i would have the urge to go out when i'm 15. he was right. XD oh well.
when i'm at home, i don't really know what to do, except facebook, fb, and fb...
it's so boooooring... =n=
and in class, math lesson made me sleep all the time. No kidding.
1st lesson was on expectations, 50 mins on expectations.
2nd lesson was on expectations and NYAA: 30 mins on expectations, 30 mins on NYAA.
3rd lesson was on variables: 20 mins on variables...
i mean what the hell was his problem? teach your damn lesson!
even though he taught some stuff today: 1 formula, he was still really slow...
sighs... why didn't i get a better teacher this year? like mrs wong???? where is she when i need her? now i know what it means to only cherish when you've lost what you'd.
i'm feeling really nervous for tmr's reflective writing.
writing on bilingualism seems quite lame but i hope i would be able to make it at least a bit interesting. zzzzzzz
still nervous, like there's hundreds of needles (not butterflies) in my stomach.
i'm feeling poetic right now. so i shall write.

i intended to wake at 6.47am today... even set an alarm.
but when it rang i stopped it and went bloody straight back to sleep...
i woke at 10.30.... there goes my precious time...
i should really sleep sooner.
anyways, went to lot 1 today to get lunch with mom and my bro.
i find myself losing appetite these days...
anorexic???
nah....
i'm too much of a glutton to be that.
then afterwards, i went back to my old house to move the rest of the junk to the new one.
god... we only left a few baggage but i volunteered to lift A stool...
any bloody heavy was that stool.
i was wading with all my strength to the lift...
we just had to live corner.....
then we called a taxi, [thank god] and got them home.
[the trunk of the car couldn't close, i was fretting but luckily, nothing major happened]
then i had to lift it all the way up again...
and we just had to live NEXT to corner.....
[btw, this was much farther than the old hse...]
hahas...
it wasn't much of an exercise but it sure had me panting...
anyways, gtg for dinner...
i kept my promise to myself and updated!!!!
looking forward to tmr's band... or not...

suddenly felt like the mood to write in god knows how many months..
hahas. sec 3 new classes are already updated. i got into 313... not bad... i guess
at least i got to take Alit=D but quite pissed off that i cant get into HP.
but...oh well, no use crying over spilt milk.
oh!
a few days ago, i laughed like i had never before,
all because a couple standing in front of me.
what was queer about them is that the male is SHORTER than the female.
it took me a while to notice... i was daydreaming.
they were acting all cheesy and cliche.
the guy had even tried to wrap his arm around the girl's waist.
god! i sprawled laughing...
i held it in though.... for a while...
and to define tall, the lady was damn tall...
[taller than yours truly...bout 180 when the guy's 165~]
she was being all coy and shy and that totally cracked me up.
she was tall and skinny while the guy was shorter than average..
OMG!
i ran in front of them to my mum and started laughing out loud.
my mom thought i was mad.
hahas
now that i think about it, i was quite mean.
i might end up like them,
with someone much shorter than me...
God... i hope NOT!
like seriously....
but thinking about the picture still make me laugh,
and still will in the future.
i just can't believe that they are able to put aside their differences.
good for them...
hahas =D
[but the girl has to LEAN DOWN to do anything with the guy... that sucks]
[i knlow that sounds wrong .... but not in that way...... but you get the picture]
anyways, my itch to write has ceased for now...
maybe i might update more in the future...
but i had already made alot of empty promises..
just see what i feel like doing....
perhaps i might feel like updating tmr.. =D
hahas
time to go
good night.....
[but still not sleeping though... not till its 12.30]

yay! one more day till school holidays!
today for sabbaticals, we went to chinatown!
it was freaking hot and i think my skin colour had tone down...
i m becoming avril no 2!!!! i don't want to!!!

anyways, at chinatown, we went to some heritage building.
and the school actually hired a tour guide to guide us through the building.
i peeked at the cashier. it read 93 bucks. more than 93 bucks for a tour guide!
this school must be rich...
the building was quite interesting and i enjoyed most of it,
if not for that bloody worksheet we have to fill up along the way,
i would have enjoyed even more. i hate writing and looking for answers while walking!
and then we looked at the old toilets. it was gross.
and then it was raining. (i thought that the rain was the special effects created by the people but apparently when i took a look outside through the window, it was raining. darn it!
and the stair case, to make it more ancient, they made it in a weird shape with worn out footprint marks. but for god's sake! it was laminated! and thus, damn slippery! it was even written on the sign beside the stairs:
"for pregnant ladies and elderly, please approach our staff for alternate passageway"
how retarded is that.
and i nearly fell too.
so unglam.

then today's band was sectionals...
it was the day of assessment!
xin yun was fretting out... she should calm down more..
and i wanted to be first but after chun hui drew no 5. out of 6 ppl.
being forst will get it over with sooner.
so, i had to wait for my turn.
when it was finally my turn, i suddenly realise that i am nervous.
yah, i am used to self denial... not knowing myself till 'the time'.
hahas
but i did pretty well, although i squeaked a little when tabby asked me to play faster.
xin yun said that they could hear me play in the soundproof music room.
lols
did i really play that loudly?
hahas, at least its better than soft till the point where there is no sound at all.

now that the assessment is over, i time to fret about next week's RGPS exchange.
i am so afraid that i would not be able to play well
and tabby said that she's not sure whether the seniors are playing!
AHHHHH!
without the seniors we will surely die... a horrible horrible death.
and instant concert is so difficult for me. especially the timing. 2 count for 4 crotchets is so difficult to count, the quavers are retarded because of the stupid timing...
here's what it sounds like...




it might sound easy but for me... its sayonara day.
wish me luck! ><